Boy or Girl, It's Been A While!

So much to talk about!

Accutane
I finished my cycle of Accutane. It worked beautifully. Everything I hoped it would do.

Infertility
For those that didn't know Kyle and I went through a lot of difficulty conceiving a child. It was a very tough, emotional road that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. When you make the decision to become a mom you feel instantly like you world will be complete. You have fulfilled your womanly duties. Well, no one tells you when you are little your world could easily be crushed. No one tells you that there are some women who have difficulty having a baby. Kyle and I TTC (tried to conceive) since September 2008. We had moved back to Jacksonville, bought a house and now it was time to have a baby. I just knew by September 2009 I would be a mom. Well, 3 months went by, I knew I wouldn't be pregnant by then but yet I hoped. 6 months, nothing yet, but that's completely normal. 9 months went by, I was starting to get a little upset and disappointed. 12 months went by and I have a dear sweet nurse friend that told me I should probably go see a doctor. I did, everything looked fine then. A year is a long time to wait, depression was setting in. Then in February 2010 I decided that I was going to take a hiatus from TTCing and do this for me. It was a very difficult decision to make. The image of making this decision is me in a DERMATOLOGIST's office crying about not being able to have a baby and I'm having to go on birth control and take monthly pregnancy tests, which of course would be negative, and the poor sweet nurse just looking at me and holding my hand, as if saying, "For peat sakes, it's just acne!"
After Accutane I had beautiful skin, loved it! I finished Accutane and Kyle and I decided to go see a fertility specialist. Everything came back, "Normal". NORMAL! Then why am I not pregnant!!! Well, along with fertility treatments comes acne! Kyle and I decided that we would go with the first track of infertility, IUI (intrauterine insemination). I would take pills that my insurance didn't pay for, then I would have ultrasounds and doctor visits, that my insurance wouldn't pay for, all for it seemed like nothing! Every month it was the same loss. Nothing to show! Kyle and I were doing our very last IUI before IVF. Full of so little hope. Then....

BABY
I am now 13 weeks pregnant. I am more than over thrilled! At last, I am a woman and a good wife! I didn't experience any morning sickness, I just fatigued (which is an understatement). Things look like they are going fine. I will post all my ultrasounds. It's amazing how quickly a baby miracle grows! I had an ultrasound done at 6 weeks, 7 weeks and 9 weeks, so far (I should have another one done tomorrow). I cannot wait to see Baby Miracle. All those years and the heartache was well worth this.

For all those who supported, encouraged and prayed for me I appreciate you more than you could ever know. Without the loving support of my husband, my family and friends I'm not sure how I would have gotten through these years!

Also, I'll try and keep everything updated from now on since I have an experience I won't mind talking about.